Even when kidnapped by my parents and flown to an island, I can still find web access. Which is a blessing and a curse. At any rate, maybe divine vibes are stronger here. As I tried to nap this afternoon, I had this very vivid dialogue with God. This almost never happens with me.
ME: I'm trying to nap, and I have this burning pain in my heart. Can you take it away so I can have some peace to sleep in?
G: Just hand it over to me. [I put an armful of something in God's hands.] I'll go set this down and we can have a talk. How does that sound?
ME: Yes, please.
G: Tell me what you're thinking.
ME: Can you please just do everything for me?
G: I'm not here to make your life easier.
ME: What? What about "My yoke is easy and my burden is light" and all that jazz? Are you just some sadistic voice in my head?
G: Life is not easy.
ME: [on my knees, in a pathetic voice] Please, please, please, just this once wave a magic wand.
G: Do you think I would alter the principles of this universe just to make your life easy, when all other people go through the difficulties of their lives?
G: I'm not here to make your life easier. I'm here to make you stronger.
ME: Are you?
G: I am making you stronger all the time. Here, let's list all the people who love you.
[We create a list of names together.]
G: And best of all . . .
ME: You love me?
G: I love you. There is enough power in my love to make you fearless. You can always be confident because you will never stray from my love.
[Things are quiet for a while.]
ME: Wait, don't leave.
G: I'm not leaving. I am here. I am always here.
ME: It's just that we were kind of quiet.
G: I thought you wanted to nap.